What are you waiting for?

shmarties @ 2008-05-06T14:58:00

2008-05-06T15:02:58Z

Sorry everyone for last night, I was an absolute bitch, and it's an inadequate entry but Dad is moaning at me (again) to hurry up.

Favourite words 8D

2008-04-11T17:54:13Z

Thought I'd copy Rach's idea of posting her favourite words on here xD
So here we go.

Affectionately.

Cos it's such a pretty, sweet word.

Ambiguous.

Rach's fault, now I buzz and laugh every time someone says it. THREE TIMES IN SCIENCE REVISION. XD

Interrobang.

It's grammatical and it's hilarious xD

Parmo.

Boro's dish and I can't say it without cracking up.

Ruckus.

"Excuse me, you were creating quite a ruckus in here 8)"

Sporadic.

Dunno why, I just really like it ^^

Swash!

Because the first time I was introduced to this word was good times XD And I love it now.

Serene

It's a beautiful word :3

German words

Jugendherberge- "Youth hostel"-

"LOL! HER BURGER!"
-Ten minutes later-
"HER BURGER!"
-twenty minutes later-
"HER BURGER! COME ON LOUISE! HER BURGER!"
"...HAHA"

Ohrwurm- "Ear worm" (literal)/ "Catchy tune"

(8)Hallo hallo, ich bin dein Ohrwurm, dein ohrwurm (8)

Schlampig- "Scruffy"-

"HAHA SCHLAMPIG =D"

Igitt- "Yuck!"

Because this is one word that you can absolutely BAWL in German! It's hilarious XD
"AH! ES GIBT EIN SMURF IM MEINEM LASAGNE! IGGGGGGGGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!"
(Assuming Lasagne is neutral)

Schleimshie

And...

Fahrt. - Journey, I think, or something along those lines.-

Because the pronunciation is absolutely hilarious.
8D

Keep smiling everyone ^^

shmarties @ 2008-04-09T18:45:00

2008-04-09T19:08:23Z

Had a dream about Molly last night. I was sat in my car and she was sat on the seat next to me, though she had her face buried in her legs so I couldn't see that. Or maybe she had her head on my knee, I can't remember but something was there. I didn't see it anyway.
I was stroking it and we were going to the vets, we were somewhere on the road there and her breathing had slowed down loads until it was practically non-existant, so i was like "Dad! Dad! She's stopped breathing/she's dying!" and Dad was like "it's alright" and then said something like "let her go" or "it's for the best" and then I sorta stopped stroking her and looked down at my hand and she'd stopped breathing and then it went all white.
Mam had a dream about her too last night. Wonder if it's her way of telling us that she's okay?
Now I remember a line from a poem of Donne's, I'll go and get it.

And we can love by letters still and gifts,
And thoughts and dreams; Love never wanteth shifts.
~Elegy XII- His Parting From Her.
Gorgeous poem, particularly that bit.

We've got another dog for a week, one that we might adopt. He's called Jack and he's lovely, but my goodness- he's incredibly skinny. And he's really unhappy too at the moment. But that's not a surprise since his previous owners never fed him and hit him about a lot. :| Poor boy. I hope that we can help him.

Went to the pictures to see 27 Dresses today. it's really, really long and quite drawn out and I knew what was going to happen. I wasn't very keen on it at all- it wasn't very well written and felt sorta half hearted. I wanted to see Son of Rambow but I'll see it another time.

Still feel horribly blank, though it comes and goes. Sometimes I can feel fine and then the next minute I'll be completely down and blank. Still, that's life and I'll do my best to get rid of the moodswings. I'm going to get stuck into revising, too. The revision days were great and at the end of it they showed us a slideshow of all of our year at the staff match and such. I was welling up practically. I actually can't believe we have about three school weeks left and that's it.

I think that's all I have to say, really. Feel quite blank now. But I've felt blank for too long and I'm going to go and revise or something like that.
xx

Rest In Peace, Molly.

2008-04-04T18:39:52Z

Molly had to be put down today. Her face had swelled up hugely in the night, so Mam and Dad took her to the Vets and basically her kidneys were failing and her heart was under a lot of strain and she had a murmur on it. She was ill- very ill.

I hope she's in a better place now.

ENNIO MORRICONE

2008-03-22T18:32:40Z

IS AN UTTER UTTER LEGEND <3
PHWOARRRRR HIS MUSIC!!!!!!
Phwoar.
Just
Phwoar.
<3333333333333

Doctor Who Trailer soon :o :D

shmarties @ 2008-03-20T18:46:00

2008-03-20T19:06:42Z

Hmm, hadn't posted on here in a fair while so I thought that I would.

I'm so tired, haven't slept properly for ages- I keep waking up at the same time every day and then I just sort of half snooze and don't sleep properly. And school's hectic too- the prom's been "provisionally put on hold". Wtf? If we work any harder we'll have breakdowns, and I don't think that'd show up well on the school's A*-C ratio.

Then again, Mrs Blake held a prom committee meeting today regarding fundraising for the prom, so yeah, can't be that cancelled xD But don't tell her I said that!

Sammy and I came up with some ideas 8D:
-Karaoke Night- little concert thing after school where people do karaoke, we're gonna try and get teachers involved too 8D
-Sammy's drawing stall- cos she's an awesome drawer she's gonna do commissions for so much, basically XD
-My short story about the teachers when they were at school, or about our year, but that one's doubtful cos it'll end up being crap xD
-Laurie's Idea- Ask the teachers if they'd be willing to dress up as something wild for a day, and then the teachers who would we'd put on the big board around school and hold a vote to see who the students wanna see xD
-Bad Hair/messy tie day
-Rach's idea- Bagpacking

Can anyone think of any more? x3 They'd be appreciated, we want to make our prom great XD

We did the liturgies again today, which was good, especially the whole dancing away in the break between them XD Caramell Dansen for the win 83 And laaing along when you don't know the words, whey!

In R.E we watched The Passion Of The Christ. It was so gory and horrible, and we weren't even watching the worst bits apparently. The worst bit about it was the fact that this really happened, and people were really like that and can be like that. I cried my eyes out and I'm on the verge of doing so again, though Mr Thompson said it was a good thing. No one else was bothered about it except Emily and Alice, which I found slightly odd. Ah well. It did have a hopeful message, because at the end Jesus came back and was sitting outside his tomb. So it shows how he defeated death, which I found hopeful.

I went to confession on Wednesday too and cried through that- all I seem to be doing is crying at the moment, I am so emotional xD. Still, I'm a woman, I'm allowed. Poor Tara, Sammy and I were just sitting there sobbing in the chapel using all her tissues and she was like "O.O;;;;; it's alright -patpat-". Nearly cried in Geography too- gosh XD

I love REM at the moment- they're amazing <3333 and they have such good songs! At My Most Beautiful is possibly one of the most beautiful pieces of songwriting ever. I might write a story to it or draw a picture to it if I feel like it. Oh, and Nightswimming- corr. REM for the win <333

Don't really know what else to say, so I'll leave it there (:

x

Dear Throat,

2008-03-12T20:07:02Z

Please stop hurting when I speak/ try to sing. And please get rid of the big white thing on my tonsil so I can sing again, 'cause it's getting me down.
Thank you <3
Lots of love,
Lou
xx

Nicked off Solly & Snuffy & Ryn

2008-03-01T18:15:18Z

How Much of your Teenage Life Have You messed up?

[ ] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test

Total: 0

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[ ] Didnt do homework over 5 times.
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late (doesn't count cos sir specifically gave me a longer deadline cos I do loads more XD)
[ ] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total so far: 1

[ ] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total so far: 5

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm
[ ] Went on myspace, facebook, xanga, etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours
[x] Listened to an iPod, cd, etc. during class. (but the teachers let us sometimes)

Total so far: 8

[ ] Threw something at the teacher.
[ ] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code
[ ] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total so far: 9

[ ] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] couldnt go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[ ]Didnt take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[ ] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear ("OH CITIZENSHIP IS CRAP! WHAT'S THE POINT? IT'S SO CRAP AND WE DO THE SAME THING AGAIN AND AGAIN! I'D RATHER HAVE AN HOUR AN COURSEWORK!" Miss Brotherston: -stood right behind me- o.o;")

Total so far: 10

[ ] Faked your parents signature
[ ] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face
[ ] Copied homework

Total: 10
Multiply by 3: 30%
Whoa rebel XD

shmarties @ 2008-03-01T14:13:00

2008-03-01T18:08:24Z

Ooh, I haven't updated on here for ages and ages :o Well, just over a week or something like that, maybe two but hey.
I have an itchy eardrum XD
Ahh that's better XD

WOO POPE IDOL FINAL TODAY!
GOOD LUCK SAMMY! You are so gonna win! You're AMAZING!

And Paul will make people laugh. But Sammy as a wife should win ^^

So I haven't really done much today, though I have got Mam a present for Mother's Day. It's a little gold and red chair jewellry box and it's really pretty. Hope she likes it =3. And then I drew the first of my les mis things 8D from "A Heart Full of Love" with Ronnie as Marius, Dahlia as Cossette and Cadence as Eponine. I actually have some sympathy for Eponine for once XD

Yesterday was our St David's Day Mass, the last ever for our year :G It was great fun though. Our mic stands, Bob, Boris and Bryan (Bob ftw) were legends, and thankfully we didn't forget them xD twas all I was bothered about XD
Then we got there and sat about basically whilst the cathedral filled up. Just managed to get everyone in as well XD I love the cathedral, tis so big and pretty <3
I can't remember much of it, but I can remember when we messed up in the Holy Holy Holy XD No one noticed. No one at all. -nod- XD
I also remember playing Blest Are You Lord and having some randomer yr 8 just swivel round in his chair and stare unnervingly all O.O;;; at me and Sally XD good times, he phears Sam's sexy recorder. AND THEN THE CLAPPING AT THE END AHAHAH. That was the best 8D side step clapping to This Little Light Of Mine and singing and grinning our hearts out and having half of the school go "O.O WTF" at us and then the other half all ":D pretty colours -stares at girls swivelling fabric round-" A few joined in with the clapping though. LEGENDS.
Then I had a media workshop and that was hilarious cos Alice and I had to interview Mrs Griffin and some other teachers about their workshops, so I was all "So, do you buy fair trade products? Do you? Are you aware of the unfairness of the usual industries? IS IT IMPORTANT TO BUY FAIR TRADE PRODUCTS? -buzzface-" and they were all like "O.O YES YES YES IT IS, VERY MUCH SO!". Loved how they were just saying it to sound good. I was gonna do a mr cosgrave on them but Alice dragged me off.
Pope Idol was great too! Nieve was amazing, bless her she has such a cute pure voice <333 and Paul was hilarious. I cried with laughter at some of his jokes (because they were so bad and I didn't get them) but don't tell him I said that or he'll get ahead of himself. Mrs Blake's face when he said that English was boring, priceless! (though for everything else there's Mastercard). Mrs Gargett in a chico hat and absolutely buzzing off mrs sammour touching Chico's muscly arms XD and I think her jokes are hilarious!
Sammy was awesome of course, though it does my head in how people only clap for "popular" people. FFS SHE DESERVED A BETTER ROUND OF APPLAUSE THAN THAT. I think if the music hadn't've started then I would've started on someone. It'd've been a brawl to don't cry for me argentina XD
And whoa whoa whoa Mrs Carlisle's actually got an amazing voice! <33 everyone on their feet swaying, ahh memories <3
I think that the teachers should have a talent show like how we have the staff match.

Feel a bit crap now because Mam keeps having a go at me over revising and homework and I'm going to Pope Idol tonight. All the revision people say that you need a revision break and to have rewards now and again. Blah. Ah well.

Rest in peace, Norma.

2008-02-22T20:14:33Z

Found out tonight that an old neighbour of ours, Norma, passed away yesterday. She was old and she's in a better place now, but I just wish I could've seen her before she died. Then again, everyone wishes that, don't they? The thing was, we didn't know where she was because she was ill and alternating between her son's house, the hospital and somewhere else, I think. Rest in peace, Norma. I'm sure that you're in Heaven, or you're on the way there. You deserve to be there.

God bless you.

x

Shining like the sunnn (8)

2008-02-15T20:23:46Z

I might start doing this LJ thing more frequently- it's a lot better than keeping everything in, anyway.
I had a dream about Elsie last night. I can't remember a lot of it, but it did have a swimming pool in it, and I think we were in a school at some point. I can't remember if she said anything- all I remember is her sitting there and smiling at me, like in a photo of her which I have. I still miss her incredibly, but the dream's comforted me a little. At least she's with her daughter now, and her husband. And she was smiling in the dream, so I think she's happy.
Shane was in the dream too, and we were watching tv in mam and dad's room and the moon was shining through the window, but I can't remember anything else of that either.
Was off school today because we had an inset/target setting day. Just had to go in for twenty minutes or so to discuss grades. They're okay but the one bothering me is History. I'm gonna try my best to get an A* in everything. It'll take a lot of revising but yeah, goes with the territory. Think I said this yesterday xD Ah well, the more I remind myself the better.
We went to Redcar, where I got very, very stressed at not being able to find a nice leaver's book. I want like a big old fashioned one, with loads of blank pages and possibly gilt edged ones, but I can't find one anywhere. Anyone got any ideas? Tried Smith's, The Works, Poundshops and Woolies.
Jess is coming over tomorrow, woo ^^
And I wrote my first non rhyming poem yesterday D: I'm ashamed.
Then again the idea wouldn't work in rhyme and a strict rhythm.
Might post it on DA, dunno if it makes sense or not xD

Anyway, hope everyone's good ^^

Move Along, Just To Make It Through.

2008-02-14T18:02:31Z

I felt it necessary to make an update, just to write what's going on at the moment. Whether I'll be able to finish it or not I don't know- I'm already pretty tired, and sitting up is draining me.
I'll start with the energy, or rather the lack of it. All of this week has just been so tiring, probably due to all of the coursework and the work I've had/got to do, and the rehearsals during lunch and after school for St David's Day. When I get home I just generally sprawl out and do nothing. Going on the comp or reading takes it out of me.
Still, at least it's half term next week- hopefully I'll be able to get some rest then. Then again...
To Do:
-Essay and questions for English on "Nothing's Changed" (good poem btw)
-Biology stuff on enzymes
-Graphics- Production Plan double sheet, have to complete the rest of my folder and make sure that's all up to scratch too.
-German- totally rewrite the school coursework, put in all case and proofread and such
-Revision: Chemistry, History, Geography, RE, Maths.

I do have exams in June though, so what do I expect. Oh, and I miss two mornings of the week off cos of Maths til 1-30 , but it'll all be worth it in the end I hope.
I've decided that I'm going to make a revision timetable and sort out when and how I'm going to revise. I've decided to print out some past papers and do one English one a week, alternating between Lang and Lit and Paper 1, 2 and 3. And then I shall print out some History paper 1 questions and some Maths too. And the rest.

Everything's going to be a huge amount of work in the next few months, but I hope that if I work hard then I'll get all A*s, or at least A*s and As. Probably won't, but hey.

I keep dreaming that I eat chocolate by accident- I've given up chocolate for Lent, you see. Odd dream o_O;

I think I'm feeling overworked because I'm sorta straying back into that mad-worrying-all-the-time-stage that I went through last year. I'm trying my best not to though.

Haven't really got the energy to put more, so I'll leave it there.

Oh, and Happy Valentines Day everyone =3 <3 xxxxxxx

shmarties @ 2007-12-23T19:56:00

2007-12-23T19:56:36Z

Stupid moodswings. :/

Argh

2007-11-18T22:04:58Z

I'm so sorry for being such a bitch to everyone over the past few weeks. There's been absolutely no need for it and I'mjust as sick of myself as the rest of you will be.
I'm sorry for the moodswings and for snapping and for the sarcastic comments and everything. I'm so sorry.

Rant. Sorry but it's necessary.

2007-11-12T19:39:28Z

"Haha you only get A*s in Geography because you bum the teacher and he bums you!"
No, Liam.
Until you try sitting up for half the night finishing a twenty six page analysis for your coursework and being worried sick that the whole thing's just a pile of crap, you can take your stupid comments back. Perhaps if you spent more of your time doing the work and preparing the essays you might get higher marks or even an A*.
BUT DON'T YOU DARE ACCUSE ME OF GETTING DECENT GRADES THROUGH FAVOURITISM, because that is one thing that I do not do. Wtf? "Bumming"? What the hell do you think I am? A slag? Yeah, a sleeparound for grades ^o) Totally makes sense that.
:| EUGH!
I'm sick of people making stupid, snide comments about things when I work damn well hard to achieve them. I'm sick of people taking the mick out of me for the way I look and I'M SO SICK OF BEING LEFT OUT OF THINGS -.-
I love how Jenny just totally leaves me out of the town thingy for her birthday. Haha now that's friendship isn't it :| For goodness sake!
I know for a fact most of you can't stand me on that table so why the heck don't you just tell me? You all never include me in anything and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of you all going "oh, well you don't have a boyfriend so it's pointless". I might not want to come when you and your boyfriends are slobbering all over each other but it would be nice to be asked.
I'm sick of being so annoyed at EVERYTHING!
AUGH!
MERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Changing subject.
Aww Absolute Beginners- I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVE THE SONG! IT'S AMAZING. <3333333
And the video's so sad too! And so Adyi/Davey.
I have the urge to write something angsty :o And Adyi Davey based.
ooh. I will after I've read and analysed the great expectations bit I need to xD

Yay cheered up a bit now :3 Rant over yay!

Ahh resits T_T (Sorta rant, you've been warned)

2007-11-08T20:38:40Z

I have resits of Biology and Physics on the 22nd November and augh I'm so scared of them :/ I feel sick and nervous whenever I think of them. I'm just gonna fail x.x I need 11 more marks on the biology one and 4-14 on the physics to get my grade overall up to A*.
Gonna faill :/
And homework's annoying me so much. As is English. No matter how much people might say I'm doing well I still feel as though I'm gonna fail it. This coursework included.
x.x
And also Alice and co and Sophie are arguing so much that I think I'm going to explode with the pressure of it all. One's threatening the other and then some're being childish and eugh it sucks ;.;. I dunno if I'm overworking myself. I feel as if I am- havn't had a free lunchtime or break this week I don't think apart from Monday's break. Monday I was working on Graphics- Tuesday, Music Ministry (in which Tara got stressed at us cos we couldn't pick up the tune; Tara I love you but the tune was confusing) and Wednesday and today lunchtimes Biology. Added to that German after school on Monday and Biology after school today and yeah. Bleh.
Physics tomorrow too x.x
Plus I'm really sure someone's really fuming at me but I haven't got a clue why. Eugh ffs drifting friends. Bleh.
I'll go and do my English now. And then my German. Augh. And maybe some Maths.
All this work and stress makes me want to cry. Though I really wanna resit physics so yeah, I need to put in the work.
AHHH MOCK EXAMS SOON TOO :|
I need to learn how to read maps. Fast.
On the plus side with the music group we'll be performing at this "afternoon of talent" thing at school and be leading all the liturgies in school and be doing a carol service at St Clare's.
And the DW 3rd series sound track is great ^^ =3 I need to buy it xD Yay for youtube xD.
x

Come back to me and forgive everything.

2007-10-30T16:37:32Z

Well, I'm back at LJ. I didn't think I'd come back if I'm being honest but this afternoon it struck me as what a wonderful thing it would be to have somewhere to just pour my thoughts out on. And here it is! LJ!
So, I deleted all the old journal entries. It was quite strange really, to see them all there like that. And it brought back some memories too. But I suppose I want to start afresh now, so here we go.
Hmm, so what to say. What did I want to pour out. I can't remember really. xD
Ooh, I watched Moulin Rouge today. The beginning with the fairy and the Argentinian dude is like "wtf" but the rest is great and I love the songs towards the end. And omg the ending! It's so sad! I was crying my eyes out. Probably would've done more so if my budgie Ritchie hadn't taken huge offence to the moment and started twittering a great deal.
Butt awwsh :(
And I love Nicole Kidman's voice. 'Specially the high notes. And Ewan is like phwoarrrr. I thought he wasn't but he is, I decided xD. Ooh, the Golden Compass out soon :O Wonder what Nicole will be like in that. Though the Asriel I'm not sure about. I always imagind him to be like a little more sophisticated looking than Daniel Craig and more imposing, but Daniel Craig is a good actor so yeah. The Lyra doesn't look good :/ "Oh please, stop!" wtf, if someone had hold of your daemon you'd be like "FDKDFNDKNSGDKSDGNGN STOP STOP STOP NOW AHHH". yes. Though that might be the director. They obviously saw something in her to cast her.
My love for musicals hasn't gone away xD. I still lvoe Les Mis and might be seeing it in November if Alice and I can get over to the Little Theatre xD. We could walk after school one day, just after school revision classes make it hard. Plus I'm not at all familiar with that part of town. I'll ask Bennett if we can walk with him part way; he lives around the Little Theatre anyway xD.
And college is looming too. I don't know which college I'm going to though at the moment it's 90% St Mary's and 10% Macmillan. It's Macmillan's open night on... Thursday, so I guess I shall go and look around there then. St mary's have a higher pass rate than Macmillan though, but I dunno. I think I'd like it. But then again I don't know if I'm meant to go there. It's confusing, can't explain.
And also apparently you need 10, 11 or 12 + A*s at GCSE to get to do 5 courses there. Wtf? I'm sure you don't need that many. I'd've thought you'd need it for like, 6 or 7 A/AS levels xD. And the geography teacher there didn't like me. She was snotty with me but she's leaving so it's all good xD.
I'm definitely taking English Language, Geography and English Literature. But then assuming I get like amazing grades (which I won't), I'll be choosing out of Applied Art And Design, Performing Arts, RE and Chemistry. Hmm. I can't draw so perhaps not applied art and design. But I love the room so much! I felt right at home there. I could work at the drawing... Chemistry. I feel I should take a science but like science isn't my thing, so yeah. I think I'd like to take RE but I don't like the classroom (yes, I know that's pathetic but classrooms influence me a lot xD) and I'd absolutely LOVE to take Performing Arts. But Dad's saying I'll be tired about by it and "what good is that anyway". Plus I could just fail terribly at it. I think I'd be quite good at it but when I look at it realistically I'll probs have no chance. :/ Pretty big gamble and considering I want to get into Oxford then I don't think I can afford to take that gamble.
But then again I don't know if I want to go into Theatre, into the writing side of it. ;.; oh, it's so confusing. I'll end up with no job when I'm older or some job I can't do/dislike. x.x
Eeesh what a mood I'm in.
Oh and also I feel as though two of my friends are drifting away from me and they're becoming closer. Now I've no objection to them becoming closer- it's great- but... I just feel as though they haven't time for me and that one day they'll just stop talking to me all together. I always manage to drive people away. Yeah, it's the drifting away part that's annoying me and hurting me. Maybe they don't realise they're doing it. If I told them how I felt they'd probably be really hurt and think me stupid. And it just sounds so petty as well, like, really pathetic x.x
But I feel better for getting that off my chest. I'm so paranoid sometimes.
Ah well. I'll get over it I think.
Wow.
How high does Everyday the reprise go XDDD